Well school has been back two full weeks who can believe it, the weeks are flying by and the children seem more settled and we are all working together as a team. I'm no where near as tired and adapting to be the one who has to get up every morning and stay up every night to do all the houseworks, I have also learnt they so what if I go to bed and the house is a mess I will just tidy it in the morning and no-one can moan at me!
The children go to childcare 2 nights a week and the love it, Devon now tells me everything about nursery something he would never do before and there is little telling off going off mainly its when he gets in poor Myles' face and pulls him about. Alana is more accepting now and isn't as angry in fact she doesn't ask about Daddy all the time and knows the routine of when he is picking them up from school etc, not long and he will have his own place so she can go to stay. Myles is an absolutely amazing little boy he is already telling us when he wants a wee and sits on the toilet regularly (I'm not ready for potty training again yet!) he is putting 3 /4 words together more and more often today I told him I'm going to win and he copied several times clear as anything and I asked him the other day do you want help and his reply Devon do it! Not bad going considering he is not yet 18 months, he had his EEG the other day and was really really good, haven't got appointment yet to discuss results hoping it comes through soon.
Meanwhile I have been sinking into depression, not eating and have lost over half a stone (not a bad thing) and have been very worried about money so I have faced reality and asked a debt charity called Step Change for help and this has made a huge impact on my mood and now I know I will be able to cope with the loss of one wage.
My aims are:
* To update blog regularly
* To finish my diploma for work by the end of the month!
* To improve my spending habits and become debt free
* To treasure my children and always be there for them
So here is to a new positive me and a change in attitude about life x